Yes, you heard me. School.
No, I don’t exactly miss the tests, homework, and/or projects. Though some of them were kind of fun. Especially in my web design class…I was always a head and use to know one of those sites that hosted a bunch of anime and whatnot. So I use to sit there with my project windowed and minimized a bit so I could have enough space for the video in order to watch something while I worked. (One day when I was completely done, I kicked back and watched Advent Children.)
But what I really miss is just the feeling of belonging and having meaning. I’ve been out in the “real world” for almost a year now and frankly, it kind of sucks. Though I already knew and had already expected this…Lately I’ve just felt kind of bland. Sure, I have my cello (thank, God) and friends but I still dread waking up and going to work. It’s not like school where I always had two guaranteed days off (the weekend). I basically know that I’m lucky to get one day (maybe two) out of the week off with nothing that I have to do. It was nice back then just relaxing… Yet, there’s more to this.
You see, I started playing Persona 3 again and it reminded me of the few good times I had back in high school since socializing is an important aspect to the gameplay. I guess I miss meeting up with my friends every morning before class and just messing around. And I miss seeing them at lunch.
I was always felt with a good feeling knowing that at least someone was waiting for me. Then having everyone be happy that I finally arrived…It made me feel important unlike the days where I go to work and it seems like everyone is out to get me.
Apart of me wishes I could just go back to those brief moments or at least feel them now.